Wow, it has been like forever since I last posted a blog.  May just started and the weather here in minn has been soo beautiful.  It was like 80 degress the other day but now it's like low 70s and the sun is shiny.  We had severe weather here in our area on monday night which I won't complain.  I love severe weather except when I have to drive in it which I did on monday nite.  I had to run to the airport to pick up someone from work because he just return that nite from his trip with nascar racing where he was able to meet the drivers and attend an auto racing.   And he said he has a blast which I am soo happy for him.

Work has been very busy.  With medical appts and getting paper work done and sent back in for upcoming camp for 3 of our residents at work.  With this nice weather outside, we have been able to get everyone out for walks and enjoying the fresh air.  Don't get me wrong, I love the job I do but it's my surpervisor that I am working under.  She keeps telling me that if i need help with something to let her know.  And when I do need help with something like getting shifts covered because I just can't get anyone to fill them, she tells me she is busy with their kids.  I understand she has two very young kids but don't tell me that if I need someone to let her know.   It's very annoying.  And because of it I end up doing it all and get even stress over much more.  Then I wonder, what's my reason for being at this job if i can't rely on my boss at the most.  I mean I am only human and I only do so much.  But yet she complains that I am too nice and do too much.  I am thinking "duh!!!  I am getting zero help from u."  And if i leave things like it is then something will fall threw the cracks and I will get in trouble and I really can't afford to lose my job right now.  Then I got up to the main office to get supplies or for a meeting and I am hearing horror stories about my boss like how she is only out there for her self and that it's most likely that she will bury me in my job.  So that makes me even more neavous with my job.  But I do bust my butt at work and keep the job going calming and smoothly.  And yet she tells me that she owes me for all my hard work but lately it's all talk not all the walk so of speak.  I got much more appreciation from my old boss then i do with this current boss.  And my old boss let me do much more extra work where this boss refuse to let me do any extra work without getting permission from her first.  You know how like your boss has confidenence that u are able to do something and lets u spread your wing and let u sore?  My old boss let me do that but this boss refuse to let me.  So some days I am very frustrated with work and just look forward to my next day off and I know that isn't a good sign that you do that.

I'm still living in Coon Rapids mn but currently looking for a place to live.  My roommates must sell there house since my roommate's husband is very ill and dying.  She can't afford to keep the house.  I am hopeing I can find a new place here in coon rapids, mn because I like it here very much.  And also I have a cat whom is very much like family and I refuse to give him out.  So my new place has to take fluffy too.  I know people would say, "it's just a cat."  Yes fluffy is a cat but fluffy is my family.  When I was ill, hurt, depressed, grieving from a best friend's death, fluffy was there.  When I turn to my friends from someone for a shoulder to cry on, and they turn there back on me, fluffy never did.  Fluffy greets me everytime when I come home from and he is very excited to see me.   I never got that kind of love or support from my husband when I was married to him.  And I got fluffy a month after I left my husband I refuse to give fluffy up.  So not happening. 

Anyways, that is what has been going on.  I have met some really nice cool friends on here lately and I miss my old friends that I used to chat with.  So everyone please keep in touch.  New or old friends.  Just please in touch.  I would greatly appreicate it.  Everyone have a good one :)